fireworks

I just got back from the East Haven fireworks, Joe and Alex dropped me off. I had fun. I originally went with Charles, then it started raining so we left. Then we both came back less than an hour later, and the rain had stopped. I met up with Jackie and we all hung out. I can't really name everyone I touched base with though because there was so many people there. Nothing cool really happened until it started getting dark. The fireworks were nice I guess. It was really hard getting out of momaguin though, so much traffic. Yesterday I hung out with Jackie and we went to a picnic at her bosses house in hopes of getting me a job at her work. It all went pretty well, the boss sharon is a really nice lady. The first thing she did when I met her, handed me a smirnoff. Hahaha, I'm not even into that stuff, but thats badass. I talked to her for a while and shes actually giving me a job and I start tomorrow. I have to be ready for work at 8a.m tomorrow, It's gonna suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

weaaaak

It's suppose to rain all day today. Last night was beat. Yesterday I went bridge jumping in Branford with Jackie and my sister. The rest of my day was boring and I wish I did something else. I woke up at 12 today because I went to sleep kind of early last night. On Saturday I'm going to a picnic with Jackie to meet her boss and hopefully I get a job with her. I really need this. Dana wants me to go to his skate competition in Bridgeport that day too, so hopefully I get to do both. Right now I just need to figure out something.. I know I'm not gonna be stuck here all day no matter what happens, I just wanna do something fun though. It's only 2:43. I got changed and got ready and ate and brushed my teeth, I need to get out.

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insanity

On Wednesday I didn't really do anything most of the day, Dana picked me up with his friend Chris around 4 I think. We drove around in Meriden for a while then went to his friends high school graduation for Meriden. I saw a couple people I knew, and Randy was there. After that, we went to a park and saw some ducks and talked about weird things and tried to skip rocks on the pond or lake I don't know what it was. We pick up their friend Kevin later and go to this kid Adam's house because he was having a party or something. It was alright, I knew a few people that were there, the night was going fine until Bcoon got too drunk and wanted to fight everyone. That's just long story short, because I don't even really know what happened. Me and Adam did win in beer pong almost all night. Later that night everyone started leaving and we went to the gas station to get snacks and drop someone off. I slept alright. I woke up around 1 and hung out for a little bit. They took me to Julie's house shortly after we woke up and cleaned a little bit. I've been trying to finish this one entry for over an hour, I'm in between listening to music and thinking. Fuck. So me and Julie hung out at her house and talked about my night for a while, then Jackie came to pick us up. We all talked for a little bit, then they decided to get some percs. We meet up with Hector and Jackie's in a rush to take us back to my house because shes already late for school. Julie bought me some too, isn't that nice? I was happy. I didn't think that she would. She spent $40 on me and Jackie. Anyway, we went back to my house and enjoyed ourselves. We took like a million pictures together. I'll skip to tonight. Dan, Brandon and Kyle pick me and Julie up a little later today. We stop by Bella's house to say hi then we decide that it would be a good idea to go to east rock. Ha. They had a 30 rack too, so we needed a place to stay to get fucked up at. We end up going there and I was having fun at first, we all were. Julie and her boyfriend kept arguing on the phone and stuff, so Dan offered to take her home, but she said Dan, her boyfriend, was on his way to pick her up. So it was just me Brandon, Dan and Kyle. We decide to go back to New Haven to chill somewhere else, and on the way down.. There was two cops, Dan freaks out and tries to outrun them in his car. It's really dark out and the roads are so narrow. We end up crashing into a huge rock. If we didn't hit that rock, I bet we would have all died. If we went off the road down the hill in the woods. I don't even want to think about it. So we crash, and none of us are wearing seat belts except Dan, and he's the only one that actually gets hurt. I fucked up my leg but it's nothing. We all get out and everyone starts running in different directions and I don't know what to do so I run too but I wasn't fast enough. I hide in the woods for almost an hour, not even far from where the cops are. I hear them looking for us and see them with flashlights all around me and they didn't find me. After they stop looking, I try and get away.. They come back and find me, and I guess they found Dan too. They kept asking me questions and who else was in the car and stuff, but I didn't say anything. Brandon and Kyle got away but Dan told them about everyone else that was in the car because he was already fucked enough. And no one else is getting in trouble besides Dan anyway. Probably at least. I hope not. Tonight was so awful. The last thing I wanna hear from someone is them telling me how stupid and wrong and dumb it was to do what we did. I KNOW ALREADY. Fuck. My dad ends up picking me up and I've been home for a few hours.. I talked to Brandon and Kyle. Every one's fine. I talked to Dan not long ago too. Tonight could have gone so much worse. I'm really lucky.

branford point

Today I woke up around one to Brandon calling me. Brandon, Kyle and Dan came over a little bit later. We walked around by the airport and ended up coming back to my house and making food. It was delicious. Charles came over and ended up meeting my friends, and they got along. I was happy it wasn't weird for anyone. We watched youtube videos most of the time and made fun of people on the internet. It was hot as hell, so evantually, we end up going to Branford Point. It was kinda windy, and not really sunny since it was around 5. But It was still warm. Kyle jumped off the dock the second we got there and he was the only one to go in the water. No one else did, then Charles and Brandon threw me in. It was the most shocking/cold feeling in the world. I knew if they didn't do that, I wouldn't have gone in at all. Me and Kyle jumped off a couple more times but I was wayy too cold. That was pretty much my day.. We went back to my house for a little but didn't really do anything. Now it's 2:27 in the morning, I'm waiting for a phone call.
I hope tomorrow goes nicely as planned.


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damn B

I don't think I updated anything since around Wednesday. On Thursday I went to a show to see kulture shock, the kill boys, copyright and red handed. It was a fun show, I don't really remember that day. Friday I got ready and did nothing most of the day, and then Jackie called me and 10 minutes later she came over. We hung out here for a few then went to Branford fest for like 20 minutes, even after she said that we were not going to go to that. It was kinda lame, didn't really see anyone we knew. Plus it was early so there was little kids everywhere. I'm not really that crazy about Branford to begin with. Whatever! After that we went to Erik's house and he had a party there, I didn't really know anyone there. It was all good fun though. There was beer pong, and of course me and Jackie dominated. It started getting late, and people started leaving and stuff. It was around 2 in the morning, and Erik's neighbor came to his house uninvited. The guy is like 40, cross eyed, creepy. And drunk out of his mind. Everyone was making a joke out of him because there was a lot of racist people there, whatever. He was just being annoying, after everyone left, there was only me Jackie and a couple others. His neighbor still wouldn't leave. It was like 3:30 and now everyone starts talking about smoking a blunt, no one knows anyone that's good this late. So Erik's neighbor leaves and says that hes gonna come back in 15 minutes with a dime bag. Wtf. I really didn't believe him, so when he left I locked the door. So we can finally go to sleep. I was actually going to bet money that this weird guy wasn't going to come back. GUESS WHAT. He came back, we go to the store to get a dutch. This is still really weird because its so late. Then when we get back to Erik's house, the guy starts like.. getting close to Jackie and hitting on her and saying really obnoxious things. So me Dylan and Erik are looking at each other like what the fuck is going on, so I text Jackie. And she responds with, "help me" So this goes on for a few more minute, and Jackie pretended to me a lesbian and that I was her girlfriend so he would fuck off. It didn't work, until Erik pulled him aside. I don't know what he said to his neighbor, but when he came back, he apologized to Jackie. Cool. Whatever. I was fucked up out of my mind so nothing was really going to phase me at this point. A few minutes after we smoke, someone starts knocking on Erik's door. Who the hell could this be? Keep in mind it's mad late. I knew the second someone was there it was going to be trouble. I even said so. Anyway, it was Erik's neighbor's wife. Shes over 200 lbs, huge lady, and shes angry. She walks in and Sean, (Erik's neighbor) has this horrified look on his face. Then she starts punching him in the face saying WHERE THE FUCK IS MY MONEY, GIMME MY MONEY. She wouldn't stop. And she was hitting him really hard. I guess he stole her money to get the bud. It was so scary. Erik asked them to take this outside and she just ignored him, then Dylan tried to say something and she flipped out. "STFU or imma take this out on you too". And he looked scared, so he didn't say anything else. I don't remember what happened after that.. They eventually went outside, on his porch, for like an hour. And still argued. He told everyone to go upstairs and he shut all the lights off and locked the doors and we all stayed there for the rest of the night. There was no blankets so I didn't get to sleep, at all. Not to mention.. never mind, after the party was over I didn't really have that much fun. Now it was morning and everyone is asleep except for me, Jackie was too tired so I made Dylan take me home later. I got home at like 10, still haven't slept! I tried taking a nap but people kept calling me and my parents kept coming in my room so that didn't really work. It's alright though. I ended up taking a shower and getting ready for the day. My mom was having a surprise party later. Charles came over and helped me and my sisters set up for it and cook and do other lame stuff, I was really happy he was a good sport about it. For real. Then everyone came and we had to stay and he met like 1,000 people and a lot of my family members and it was nice. We left at like 6:50 and went to Wallingford to check out the show. I had a lot of fun. The second I got there I was kinda pissed though because of the amount of people, and the rain. I had never seen that many people at the legion before. It was insane. I didn't really pay attention of any of the bands besides the kill boys and hostage calm. Coooool. It was raining so bad a bunch of people went into that random abandoned warehouse thing next to the legion, and they made a fire. It was kind of, different. Not really cool, so I can't explain it. The smoke was really hurting my eyes so I left. During hostage calm everything was so hot and nasty because of the rain and stuff. There was steam at the ceiling from everyone moving. Intense. I'm not sure what I'm doing today, but you should go to this show on Saturday.

weird day

I forgot to post about all the weird things that happened on my last day of school at Sound. Yesterday was my last day and I didn't really do any work I said goodbye to everyone and all my teachers, it was kind of sad. But once it got time for lunch.. it made me realize there's quite a few people I really won't miss. ANYWAY, I got to say goodbye to all my friends and teachers that mattered. Yesterday was really hot too by the way. Not just really hot lets go to the beach, it was so hot schools were letting out early. Sound is so lucky that we have air condition in the buildings. After my dad came and signed me out, I didn't even leave. I walked around and eventually went to eddies corner store down the street with Tara. That's when all the crazy things starting happening. I walked near the entrance and two black people were talking and one was holding a pretty large bag of bud, she asked me if I needed any, I said no. The lady that was with him was very nice and bought me duchies at the store. It was too hot to sit in Tara's car so we sat outside waiting for school to get out so we could pick up Satchel and Jack and match them. So we're sitting outside the store, and this guy comes out of his car and starts talking to us, asking if we needed bud, I told him that I was waiting for my friend to get out of school so I could match him, I only have $7. He told me he would do it anyway, he said when he came back he wanted my number, I didn't give it to him. So I said sure. What did I have to lose? He left in his car, and we waited outside for a little while longer. We go inside to get drinks, and 2 people I know come inside, with the boy. It was Jackiesha and Julianette. I knew keisha from the hospital when I had to go in 8Th grade, and I went to middle school with them. She came inside and we talked for a little bit, apparently she has a baby now. And the father is the boy that was selling me the bag. He gave it to me in the store right next to the clerks. Like wtf. He told me it was okay and that he knew the people. Alright. I was very impressed with what he gave me, and for $7 too. Nice. So we're still sitting outside, and this old Hispanic guy is walking down the sidewalk singing some Spanish song, pretty loud. Then he starts talking to us and he kept telling Tara that she was Latin and all this crap, he eventually left us alone. I walked across the street and started drawing stuff in the dirt with a stick, these two Arabs that worked at Eddie's asked us if we needed a ride, we said no because Tara drove us. Then he says no, and that he wanted to know if we would give HIM a ride. Hahahahhahaha, yeah right. That definitely didn't happen.

what a beautiful day

today has been so great already. I woke up really early and was tired, even though I had 8 hours of sleep. I got ready and went to adult ed with my mom. The lady there was really nice and I saw a couple people I knew there. I started filling out information on these papers and signing stuff and then I got to pick the classes that I would take for when I started and it sounds so great already. It's almost like I didn't stay back at all, because I can get 20 credits in 2 years. And I don't have to get my ged now, not that I didn't want to. I would just rather get my diploma. My mom was talking to the lady about how we live in New Haven and she told us I can come anyway since theres quite a few people that live in the cove and go there, I can name at least 10 people that aren't east haven residents that go there off the top of my head. That's not the point, I'm happy. All I need is a job now. I'm going to a show tomorrow in wallingford to see red handed, copyright, killboys, and a couple other bands. It should be fun. I'm also hopefully going to the show on saturday. Hostage calm, yes.


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um k

I just read the blog I made from yesterday.. It looks like it was made by a 8 year old with add. I'm so bored right now. I woke up like an hour ago and I know I'm gonna be doing nothing today. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

awful sick

I can't make up my mind about anything. One day I'm happy, and then I'm just pissed. I can't figure out how I feel. I'm tired of pointless relationships. Guys are such babies sometimes. I get to sign out of school this week so I can sign up for adult ed in September. I feel like absolute shit right now. I've never been this hungover in my life. I haven't done a single thing all day besides relax in my bed. I knew that I was going to do this today seeing as I've been out everyday for the past week, so I'm not mad because I didn't do anything today. My moms birthdays tomorrow and I think we're going to lighthouse or something. I went to lighthouse yesterday and went swimming in the ocean for the first time this year with Kyle, Dwayne and Steve. We ended up doing the same thing as Friday and chilled at Kyle's dad's house. You know what really makes me mad...?? GIRLS. Why does everyone always have to start problems. Why does everyone have to talk so much shit. I need a job... so bad. I'm so tired of looking. No one is ever going to hire me. I'm never going to get a car. I feel like a waste right now. I don't know why my ex still reads my blogs. He's not even nice to me.

OH MY GODDD

I HATE EVERYTHINGGGG
you all suck.

June 1st

I havn't been keeping up with this much in the past few days. I'm not going to write everything that has happend in the past week, because I hardly even remember everything that happend. And because of that, I doubt it's anything important. Friday was field day, I hung out all week. Last night I chilled with Jackie. It's really nice out right now. I'm in complete loss for words right now because I have no idea what to write about.