waste

I've been so lazy lately. I didn't go to school today because I suck at life. I went to bed some what early but I still couldn't wake up. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm not in a very good mood right now, I don't know whyy. It's Friday, I think I'm suppose to hang out with Julie and Liana. Julie was supposed to sleep over today. I hope she still does. I was really irritable yesterday for some reason, it was annoying. I feel really bad. Why didn't I go today. I want to see Jared. I hope I feel better later. I should go smoke.

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It's almost Sunday. That means it's my last day until I have to go back to school, I don't wanna think about it. I hate this weather, spring seems so far away and its annoyyinggg. Things are going to be so much better once it gets warm out. Up until this afternoon around 6, I didn't do anything at all. I havn't done anything in the past 3 days until then, it was starting to make me upset. I hateee the snow. But then Jared came and I wasn't really in a bad mood anymore and we went to pick up Rob, Jesse, and Boat. We ended up driving around east haven and then we went back to Jesse's house and smoked and then Kyle came. It was alright being there for a bit, watching them play call of duty. When me and Jared left we got icecream sundays and drove places. I had funnnn. Today I also went to like 10 stores to see if they were hiring. I got an application for TJ max, Home goods, and Friendlys. I also applied to Pet Star, Dunkin Donuts, and Cold Stone, at different times. No one will hire me. Fuck this. It's so much harder than I thought and I feel like such a waste because I'm broke. I just chipped my fucking tooth with my lip ring. It hurts so bad. alkgjfghsgyrgklru. I'm so irritable lately. I hope I can lighten up sometime soon.

FEB Vacation always sucks

holy shit!

I really havn't done much at all this entire vacation. I guess it really sucked until the past couple days, and it sucks even more because when I think about it now its almost over. I don't wanna go back to school. I want it to get warm. I want to go swimming. Yesterday I hung out with Julie all day and Jared and Bruder came to my house for a little bit and I smoked a blunt with Andy and everything was cool and then we went to Julies house and Liana came too and we were all just hangin out, we watched this movie. It was really sad. I forgot what it was called already. I'm really happy I got to see Jared though he just got back from Florida and I missed him a lot. He got me a carton of newports<33 And this really pretty shell from the beach in Florida. It was so cute. He's so nice. A few days ago, probably like 4 or 5 days ago, Julie and Liana came to my house after we slept there, and then Jackie came over too. Our plan was to go to the west farms mall, but this kid paul said he was going to give us a really good deal with some oxys. So Julie was going to get 5 for 140, and he was supposedly going to give us a free one if we bought it. OKAY. So while I'm in the shower, Julie and Liana go to the gas station to meet this kid. They wait for like an hour and he just never shows up. So we leave to go to the mall, and Julie and Liana were arguing about stuff and it got so bad Jackie made us take her back to her car. So now its just me, julie and liana on our way to the gas station, we're in north haven, when that kid paul calls them back saying to meet us downtown, after he blew them off before and made them wait an hour for no reason. So we seriously just go downtown for hopes that this kid will actually show up. Sure enough, we get there, we meet him. He gets in the car, and long story short, he trys selling us advil. At first I thought it was kinda funny, cuz it was really obvious and the kid was realllyyy dumb. He told us he was on his way to smoke a dust blunt and that he sold acid and shit, it was really fuckin halarious. What a scumbag. So while we're in the car getting all pissed that he's doin this to us, he gets pissed too and says like, yo bitch don't get fuckin cocky with me, you know what pull over im gettin out. And he starts callin us all these halarious names. He gets out of Liana's car, opens it again and calls us herpes infested bitches, and kicks her car, and spits on it.

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I'm at Julies house with Liana. We slept here last night and I'm so tired right now. Even though every one else is asleep. I'm kinda hungry too. Yesterday was a half day so it went by really fast... After school I went to Jesse's house with babyluth, Josh, and boat. And then Pat, kyle clement and chris ended up coming over. I watched them play call of duty for a while, and it was so loud. We played super smash bro's for a while too. I ended up seeing Jackie for like 2 seconds so she could come to Jesse's house cuz I needed a dime. And I smoked with Jesse and boat and chris and steve a little. I was at his house for so long, and me and Jackie had plans. But she ended up not picking up her phone so I guess I wasn't gonna hang out with her, totally didn't see that coming. But I ended up getting picked up by Matt and Rancid boy at dunkin donuts down the street. I wrote Rancid gay first by accident. Hahahaaha. We went to Chris marrinaccio's house because he's home from college for a little while and everyone was there. I knew Julie was there.. Casey and Jenn were there, matt, his brother, matt's girlfriend kate. Um. Mad other people I don't feel like saying all the names. Liana met us there. So I was basically smoking all day, because chris matched me too when i got there. And Liana and me went for a ride to get a bag from someone. I'm cold and no one else is awake. I miss Jared... He's coming back on weds, but it already feels like its been so long since ive seen him. Fuckkkkkkkkkk.

happy

tonight was nice<3

wallyworld

I'm at Julie's dads house in wallingford. I slept over last night and Julie dyed my hair and then I took a shower, and now I'm here. I don't feel so good. Last night I had such an awful headache and I have no idea why because I usually don't. Well yesterday I stayed home from school and I was really bored so I went for a walk by myself and I went to dunkin donuts and got a hot chocolate and stayed there for almost an hour. Then I walked to stop and shop for no reason at all and ran into sarah anderson and talked to her for a minute. I miss hangin out with her. Anyway, I made plans with Jackie via text message while I was there and I walked to the green and sat around and took some pictures or things, and it was so nice out. Then Julie and Chris picked me up there and we went to walmart which was kinda nice because I had a giftcard for walmart and I got hair dye and new lip rings, but theyre too big and wierd so I took them out. Then Chris took us to Julies house and we did some drugs and then Jackie came to Julies house too and we went to my house and smoked half a blunt, and lost the rest of it. And I'm still pretty upset about that. Andrew came to my house for a little and then not long after that I decided I was gonna sleep over Julies dads house with her, so Julie went to her house with Bruder and me and Jackie went to Jackies house to get clothes cuz she was sleeping at her boyfriends house, but on the way Jackie realized we had to pick up her little sister and 5 of her friends haha so that took so much time, and then we evantually met up with Julie and Andy and when we got to Julies house we watched this movie called Invasion with Nicole Kidman and it was pretty good. I fell asleep in her sisters bed. thats it I guess. It was raining and snowing pretty bad earlier today but it stopped, and I really really really really really really wanna see Jared today. I hope I do <3

house decorations

Friday I slept over my sisters house and babysit a little bit and hung out with Rob. We didn't go to sleep until around 4 in the morning and when I woke up Steff brought me home. From there I started cleaning my house and Hayleigh came over and we went to the store and got cigs and went to visit Julie for a little bit. Matt and mick mack bought booze for us. We hung out for a while and people slowly started coming over and I was trying to spend time with Jared, but there was too many people I guess. I don't really want to get into detail on what happend. None of my close friends showed up like they said they would besides Hayleigh and Jared. My house got egged. Someone blew up my phone prank callin me. I don't know why so many people hate me. Am I really that rotten of a person, that people would actually do that to my house. It's annoying. I wish I knew who did it, I wanna kill them. And some how my stupid neice found out I had people at my house from myspace or something and fuckin told her mom who then told my sister steff who didnt give a shit and started flippin out on vicki, and me and hayleigh go downstairs and vicki is here of course, acting like the victim. Crying. Then acusing me of having a party, and telling on me. Of course all the evidence is gone and the fact remained, I was at Hayleighs house =). Theres still alcohol left, and it's superbowl sunday. I hate football. I didn't do any of my homework, I didn't go to school on friday because i'm a lazy fuck. But for once in my life im actually caught up in school in what I actually have to do. It's nice, or a good feeling I guess. But I hate school and I wont be able to handle it for much longer. I'm already tired of being single.I want a nice boy.I need to be treated fairly.