maybe

I think I might be okay now. I had a long talk with my sister Vicki last night, I feel enlightened. I'll write more about it later, maybe.

by myself

The only place where I could find comfort and security is poisoned by thoughts of you.

You've taken everything from me.

ugh

I'm having such a hard time. It doesn't help that he wont even talk to me at all and ignores me. He deleted our pictures. I really can't take it.

another

lifeless day.

Nothing has gotten any better. I guess you could say that I had a good day today. I got ready, hung out with my friends all day. But it's still the same thing every night. Lonely. I can't stand every other guy out there. Nothing will change this.

theres no escape

everywhere i go, something stupid reminds me of you. i cant get away from it. all the stupid stuff you wrote on my walls. right above my bed where it says ILY Jared <3 Jessy. On my ceiling. where you wrote jf + jf. im haunted by you everywhere i go. and now, you're taking over my dreams too. i cant even escape you in my sleep.

what a shitty day

i keep forgetting that i don't have school at all this week. whatever, i dont even mind going to school because it keeps my mind off of... things.. for a short amount of time. ive been going out almost everyday, and ive never felt more alone. i dont want to talk to you, or you, or you. i'm tired of condescending assholes, and im so sick of people calling me kid. i need to get out of here. i think i will.

if it wasnt for bad luck

id have no fucking luck at all

I'd like

to take back a few things i said in recent posts. i do have friends. i have people i can talk to. but i know its not going to help me. or change anything. so why even tell people about my problems..

why am i alive right now

each day goes on. nothing is getting any better. i lost everything that mattered. i have no friends. i have people that i hang out with but no friends. no one that i actually want to talk to. no one that wants to listen to my problems. just people that pretend to care because they feel obligated to. i dont know how much longer this is going to work out..