pp in the street

I had a show in my basement Saturday. Hate your guts, stomped on sight, fast, damaged, and this pretty cool band Revenge from Mass. Everything went fine, no one got hurt, nothing got stolen, and it only took like 20 minutes to clean everything. I had fun. The week before that, went to some kegger in Meriden with Charlotte and a few of my friends at Dana's friends house. We were there for less than an hour before the cops came. The next day, my friend Sara came over and we went to the show at the legion to see the kill boys. I don't know what it was, but I had so much fun for no reason haha. I mean, it was a good show, but I was so happy. We went to some party after, it was real sketchy, it was dana's friend of a friend and I don't even know. All I remember was reggaton music, a strobe light, and 3 fat girls jigglin their fat. We were there for less than 20 minutes. Then we went to Tasia's house. I wish we went there first, because I ended up not feeling good really fast, because I was drinking at the show and I didn't even eat that much that day, soo. I made Charles take me and Sara home. I was puking and walking on the way to the car. Not cool. Friday night, the night before the show, Chris and Stefan came over to help me clean. It was fun. Then we went laser tagging with Joey, Chris, Stefan, Charles, Mike and Josh. It was pretty intense. I gotta go do something. No one reads this lol.

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hey everything, fuck you
i hate everything you do to me
i despise every lie i've come to believe
and i hate every evil thing that i see
this juxtaposition of good and bad
remind me of the best and the worst dreams i've had
i'm either to happy or fucking sad
and i can't keep up with that

im

alrighttt.

maybe

I think I might be okay now. I had a long talk with my sister Vicki last night, I feel enlightened. I'll write more about it later, maybe.

by myself

The only place where I could find comfort and security is poisoned by thoughts of you.

You've taken everything from me.

ugh

I'm having such a hard time. It doesn't help that he wont even talk to me at all and ignores me. He deleted our pictures. I really can't take it.

another

lifeless day.

Nothing has gotten any better. I guess you could say that I had a good day today. I got ready, hung out with my friends all day. But it's still the same thing every night. Lonely. I can't stand every other guy out there. Nothing will change this.

theres no escape

everywhere i go, something stupid reminds me of you. i cant get away from it. all the stupid stuff you wrote on my walls. right above my bed where it says ILY Jared <3 Jessy. On my ceiling. where you wrote jf + jf. im haunted by you everywhere i go. and now, you're taking over my dreams too. i cant even escape you in my sleep.

what a shitty day

i keep forgetting that i don't have school at all this week. whatever, i dont even mind going to school because it keeps my mind off of... things.. for a short amount of time. ive been going out almost everyday, and ive never felt more alone. i dont want to talk to you, or you, or you. i'm tired of condescending assholes, and im so sick of people calling me kid. i need to get out of here. i think i will.